11:11

Tick... tick... tick...

It is 11:11 – the time we were not in love. My mom told me that I should make a wish and it will come true. How funny it was that I wished for dolls and dresses. I was so happy when I got those.

It is 11:11- the time I thought of something about my mom telling me to look for someone who’ll make me happy. I wished for someone who would cherish me. I wished for you.

It is 11:11. For the second time, it’s true. I found you. Your eyes stared directly at mine, telling me how much I mean to you. We wake up every morning with our legs tangled up together and always make our favorite brown coffee with a soft music playing in the background. I wished our relationship to remain strong and we last forever.

It is 11:11 and I’m asking why. You stood by the door telling me you needed to find your happiness because you can’t find it in me. It hurts so much looking at your back because I would give you the stars and the moon even if you wouldn’t do the same. I wished that you would come back to me and revoke everything you said.

It is 11:11 and I’m asking for my wishes to be heard. Have I done something bad for me to suffer? We bumped into each other in the street. I asked how you’ve been and you gave me your brightest smile telling me you’re well. I want to say more but all I did was to smile and look everywhere except your eyes. You asked me, too and I said that I’m good. You know that I’m not a good liar. I wished that you would say more and you’ll not ignore my lie.

It is 11:11- only an hour left till the day ends with me-crying. Maybe it’s fate. It wasn’t supposed to reach the point where I would drown myself in tears- whispering your name between my sobs. I wished that you truly loved me. I wished that I could forget everything about you- even in my dreams.

It’s 11:11 when I realized something. Not all of my wishes about you will come true. I believe that I will be over you. The day in the calendar we had our promises, I will erase it all. It will be no big deal later. Everything will go on its right spot. Our memories will pass. I wished for us to live happily with the people who will make our 11:11 wishes come true. Tick... tick... tick...

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