i remember you

Kaye Santos
May 19, 2017
3 min read

"You alright?" I heard his voice from the stairs. Finally, he's here- the only person who talks to me. "You are 17 minutes late," I said. He's busy nowadays. "I'm sorry. Our board exam's coming and I need to---" "Review. I know. I'm just making you feel bad for always making me wait," I cut him short. "Here's your iced americano. Please don't be mad. I asked the lady to add more whipped cream. You like it, right?" Oh, not again. He's using his 'i-bought-this-don't-be-mad' move and his blue eyes. "You're really making me hate myself. I hate you," I took a sip. " Are you sure you aren't tired at all? I mean, it's already 2AM and you need to get up at six, you can go home and rest. I can stay here alone." I enjoy the wind here although I'll enjoy more if I'm with him. "No, I'll stay with you," he looked at me. "I score you 100 points plus alpha," he said, shifting his eyes at the stars. "What?," I answered- looking puzzled. What is he talking about? He's not making me decode his words again. "My care meter--- you're 100 points plus alpha. That's quite high. I'm not the type of man to care, I suppose you know," he grinned. "Ah... Well, thanks," I bowed down, obviously mocking him. "That's all? You aren't even--- You didn't get it, right?" he looked at me as if he met the dumbest person in the world. It's natural for him to think I'm an idiot. It always takes time or explanations from him before I fully understand what he said. He told me I'm only good at hurting myself. Well, welcome to his Cryptic Club. "Alright, I don't get it. 100 points plus alpha, then what?," I rolled my eyes in annoyance. "Alpha--- it is something extra---" He started his monologue about these 'alpha divided by zero thingy' and explanation of complicated technical terminologies. "--- so, that's it. You should be happy. You're one of the people I care about," he told me, showing his brightest smile up to his ears. "I still don't get it. Can't you make it simpler?" I retorted which caused him to take back his smile. "That's why I don't talk to you at school. You're so dumb. Anyway, I'm just telling you, I can’t put a number on how much you mean to me," he looked down, probably, he feels shy because of what he said. "Uh... You aren't saying anything," he added. "Thank you! I'm so grateful! Things like that?" I shrugged which earned me a bad look. "I knew you won't say something. I shouldn't have told a dumb gir---" "That's kinda sweet, in a geeky way. You also mean a lot to me," I patted his shoulders. "I can't say how much. There isn't a tool to measure the depth of the ocean and the height of the heaven," I gave him my warmest smile.

Not a single word came out of his mouth, instead, he just looked me in the eye. "You didn't saw that coming right? I can be like you, sometimes," I winked. The next thing I knew, we are laughing our asses out. "For 6 years, I didn't imagine you saying something wise. I mean, you? For I know, you always talk about sad and useless things." I punched his shoulders, still laughing. He's making me remember myself in the past. "I'm just kidding. You aren't dumb. It is just that there are average people, then there are people above and---" looking at me "---below." "Do I need to thank you again for that?" then I gave him a glare. He's a bit cocky but he's nowhere near being a jerk. He treats me like we both came from the same mom. I can't imagine happiness without him. He's more than a bestfriend to me. If not for him, maybe I jumped off this rooftop 7 years ago.