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I knew that I would write something about my school but I didn't expect it to be tonight. I did everything I could to stop myself from writing this one. Well, I can't take everything anymore. Everything in that place is biased

Back when I was 12 years old, I chose my current school because I heard about how good the teachers are--- both the personalities and way of teaching. So, when I started coming here as a Grade 7 student, I expected a lot. They are telling the truth about this school. The teachers are doing well with us. Or others are just mistaken?

I don't regret my decisions in life but if I have to regret something I have done, it will be my choice of studying here. It started when I was in Grade 8, my teachers blamed me for something I didn't do. My classmate ran for the vice presidency of our student

government and she did not get any votes from the class. Our adviser expected her to win since a lot of our teachers like her (and we don't because of her crappy attitude). I have nothing to do with it but my adviser thought that I told the whole class not to vote for her during the elections. The people I thought were my friends even turned their backs one me. I heard them talking with my teacher about how much they hate me. It's something I cannot forget until now. It made me hate everyone in that place so much. I felt alone--- cut off from everyone else. That's when I realized how biased our teachers are. They didn't even let me explain my side. And when I got the first rank in that school year while their beloved student ranked second, my adviser (I totally hate her) told me (in front of the class) that I don't deserve my spot and I just got there because of my extra-curricular activities when clearly, I ranked first in extra-curricular and second in academics. Imagine how humiliated I felt that time.

And then the series of biases began. So, here it is. Apparently, someone the school administration dislike won the school government president position (they like the other party's president). I won the position for vice president and we became the school leaders. I thought it was okay at first... (although I also dislike the school president a little because he doesn't know what to do) because we're doing well but it's only in my head. The school admin hates us. I really think that they hate me until now (that everyone hates me). Compared to the officers this year, we suffered a lot last year. The admin wasn't helping us the way they are doing right now and just let us on our own. I remembered how much stressed I felt during a certain program in the school because they are opposing everything we've planned to do. I even cried because I can't stand them anymore. But for the sake of respect, I kept up with them. I finished my job until the last day of our term. Another, we have this program involving our municipality wherein school officers will attend a (somehow) seminar and experience working in the Municipal Hall for a week. And it's our school's turn for being the Municipal Mayor (which has a lot of privileges). Clearly, our school president should be on the spot but they chose someone (the beloved student who's not even an officer) to take the spot. Yearly, school officers are being sent to this program but during that certain year, they changed the rules telling us that it should be the way they wanted. I figured it out already that it's because they don't like the president and it will be unfair if I'll get the spot so they chose her instead. I felt bad a little (having something you deserve being taken away from you), how much more the president? My mom even told me to complain about the sudden change but I held myself back. I'll let the school do what they want. I respect their decision but now, I can't take it anymore. They're being unfair. They decided to send the school officers for the program again. A student told me how it was only a lie when they told us that the Municipal Officers asked the school to send someone else and not an officer. Sounds really cool, right?

Even in the classroom, biases were observed. Not only in our class section but also with the others. Our teachers tend to praise only the student they like and give them higher grades than those who deserves good grades. (I experienced getting a lower grade in a our computer subject even I got the highest score in almost all of our quizzes and finished my hands-on activities wherein someone I know got a higher grade even if she scored low in the quizzes and didn't finished her works.) I realized that even if I work hard and study well, I would not get the grades I deserve if the teachers don't like me. Some of my friends and classmates have thought about this, too. I began to hate my school so much. I began to hate people in that place. They aren't real. They're nice in front of you but secretly stab you in the back when they're behind you. It wasn't the school I thought about when I was in Grade 7. I have realized a lot of things here. You cannot please everyone. They will hate you no matter what. I don't even know why they hate me. I feel like eyes are watching and everything I'll do is wrong. I don't care. Once and for all, I need to let this out. Well, the feeling is mutual. I hate that place so much and I can't wait to graduate next year. :) (I know there are errors in grammar. I'm sorry I just need to pour this out. It feels heavy in the heart. I don't want to go to this school anymore. Please, 7 months, be fast.)